school and other woes

2009-01-10T01:07:56Z

   Im stressed and relieved all at once. Is that even possible? School is just out of my grasp and I want it so bad. Life teases me, but so far its working out.

   I got an e-mail from school that said a class I need to graduate was canceled. I freaked out all day until the head of the Dept got back to me. She was not very helpful anyhow. She suggested I take another class to substitute the required class and she would wave it. Sounds good right? I cant take the class she is willing to substitute. Great! I had a brilliant idea. An independent study! She said yes, I can graduate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   North Carolina School of the Arts.... I want it, I need it. The mascot for the school is the Fighting Pickle. It wears a pink tutu. I have to go to that school. There are other reasons of course, but that is the icing on the cake. I'm scared. What if I don't get in? I wont find a better school. What if I do get in? I will have to leave CT. Neither are good options for me.

Gah, I'm confused

Oh,and my furnace damn near blew up on me last night. So we almost died but instead inhaled toxic fumes all night. This apartment is a death trap. Which brings me back to leaving CT. Not such a bad idea?

stolen from Janet

2008-07-06T05:14:26Z

Meme Stolen From Janet
Beacause it seemed like the thing to do at the time, since I've never made a post.
Directions:
01) Bold what is true about you.
02) Underline what is half true.
03) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
04) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
05) Tag five LJ friends. (Tagging fortysevenbteg, glenniebun, heatherlayne_n, johnkilo, and minteckers, but don't feel obligated to actually do it.)
06) Ask me anything about the bold/italicized/underlined.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I've been the psycho ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I have broken someone's bones
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need/want money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without caller ID
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I slept with a roommate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have kissed someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop and/or window shop.
I'm obsessed with my livejournal.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cellphone.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I have a lot to learn.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least five away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on livejournal.
I would die for my best friend.
I am obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot whenever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I am proficient on a musical instrument.
I hate office jobs.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I am a pyro.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people I loved.
I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
I adore bright colors.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I hate chain theme restaurants like applebees and tgifridays.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at least one person I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I have cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist. I like to draw.
I am ambidextrous.
I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
If it weren't for seeing other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
I have lived in either three different states or countries.
I am extremely flexible.
I want to own my own business.
I smoke.
I spend too much time on the computer.
Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
I don't like it when people are displeased or seem displeased with me.
I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
I have played strip poker with someone else before.
I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
I can't stand being alone.
I have at least one obsession at any given time.
I constantly spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
I'm a judgmental asshole.
I'm a huge drama queen.
I have traveled on more than one continent.
I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
I can speak more than one language.
I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
I would rather read than watch TV.
I like reading fact more than fiction.
I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
I have no piercings.
I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
I once spent christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication about which parent was supposed to have me that night.
I've been married and am now divorced.
There have been times when I have wondered "why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
I like most animals better than most people.
I own a collection of retro game consoles
The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
I have hit someone with a dead fish.
I have written/read erotic stories.
I am compulsively honest.
I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers and not been ashamed.
I have gone from wishing I was a boy to reveling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
I am unashamedly bisexual and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
I find it impossible to get sleep without some kind of music on.
I dislike milk.
I obsessively wash my hands.
I always carry something significant around with me.
Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig than use my own hair.
I love talking about myself to the point where I need to be stopped.
I often sing whenever I can and I'm good at it too.
I have experienced some kind of traumatic abuse in my lifetime.
I've experienced visions and dreams which I know/believe are from my past life.
I have deja vu so vivid that I feel faint.
I love Harry Potter.
My parents are not together.
I don't believe in love.
I hate people who walk incredibly slow.
I have extreme contempt for the vast majority of people.
Sometimes I don't shower before work.
To me, procrastination is like a disease!
I want to sleep now.
I enjoy watching two guys kissing each other.
I am a typical gemini born.
The more I've searched the less I've found.
As a child I was a huge crybaby.
I'm feeling alone very fast.
I'm living in a fairytale and I'm the noble Princess who saves the day!
I always have to spell my real name.
I want to die in my sleep.
I have a strange laugh.
If they let me, I can sleep 12 hours in a row.
I wish I could transform myself into a boy every now and then.
I dance in the rain and don't feel like a fool.
I have a favorite stuffed animal that I will not ever get rid of.
I sing 80s hair metal songs into my hairbrush on a daily basis.
I have a speech disorder.
I'm infatuably attracted to men with long, blond, curly hair.
I sometimes have the urge to take a shot of whiskey or open a can of beer at odd times in the day.
I have a weakness for guys with nice bodies.
I plan to move to another country at some point in my life.
Ever wanted to be a certain fictional character.
My dreams are so vivid they feel real.
I'm a huge geek, the comic-book and video game kind, not the smart kind.
I can get jealous easily.
My computer and hard drive are pretty much my most prized possessions.
I prefer to buy CDs than download music, free or otherwise.
I haven't had my first kiss yet.
I've had teeth pulled.
I listen to music in at least five different languages.
I think boys/guys/men are icky.
I prefer dim lights or candlelight to bright lights.
I fully acknowledge that I love lame jokes, because they're lame.
I get happy when I buy food on sale.
I can find beauty and something to love in anything around me.
Desperate to find out where I belong.
I am a home owner.
I take public transportation to work.
My favorite food is one from a different country than I grew up in.
I have a terrible fear of the dark.
I rebel against things that are pushed on me. Probably more than I should.
I really need a vacation.
I've faced a hard choice and made the wrong decision.
I have faith that the universe is unfolding as it should.
I cannot truly regret past events in my life, so long as at present it is turning out well.
I feel comfortable expressing myself honestly.
If I could, I would be somewhere else right now.
I have an entry on Wikipedia.
I study, and practice, sorcery as a daily way of life.
I have had sex on a riding lawn mower.
I have a sexual kink that I'd rather people never find out about.
I feel like I have no real friends anymore.
I collect travel books to places I never plan on visiting.
I sometimes wish I could go to sleep and never wake up

April

school and other woes

stolen from Janet